Dredwerk~5 Years on..
Its been 5 very long but very short, years, since my son James took his life this day. Its been the most monumental inner struggle ever to maintain a measure of composure in life as literally, every, single, thing,.. changes. This is the first day of spring and the weather today reflected exactly the weather of the day I discovered my son. The chaos of the next few hours was epic, something that just does`nt happen except in dreams and nightmares..and always to “someone else”. I felt it only right to mention the horribleness because it might help anyone young and suicidal to maybe just give a little thought to others, though I know full-well now that thought processes don`t work too well when feeling suicidal, so it becomes a kind of catch-22 situation.
I`ve written a page on James here on this blog, Dredwerk. Take a peek to get some insight? Take a peek also, a really good peek by the way, at this Memo to Suicidal Young People by Tony Salvatore, another father of a young man who completed suicide. I actually have a hard time putting into words how I feel about “stuff”, Tony has managed to capture everything I want to say exactly.
So there you go, thats my say on the matter, just wanted to air at least something on my son here on the front page as it were! So to James, God Bless you Big Man! Me and your mum Carolyn, Ariane, Bryony and Marcus, Jackie and Tom and all the family send and wish you all our Love!!! “….its just a little time”.